I'll Show You My Tits to Prove "Trans Puberty" is Superior to "Natural Puberty".

NSFW: Yes, there ARE photos of my breasts in this article. Delete if it bothers you.

Most would expect a pay-wall… there isn’t. Don’t say I’ve never done anything nice for you.

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“Trans Puberty” is superior to “Natural Puberty”.

I’m feeling pretty confident in this statement because chances are you don’t know shit about hormones. Come to think of it you don’t know shit about chromosomes either. Short of being an endocrinologist, receiving transition healthcare or being the parent/guardian/partner of someone receiving transition healthcare, chances are high that you’ve no fucking clue about any of it.

First things first though: Showing you my tits isn’t an “act of bravery”.

Put your “panty bunching protocol” on standby for a second so we can get something straight. Do NOT fucking comment “you’re so brave for doing this”. At best this is a “community service”, at worst an “act of obnoxious self-aggrandizing”. Of all the internet shitheads out here, few are blessed with as great a rack AND as little shame as I am. So, despite the inevitable inundation of the obligatory “YoUr FeEdInG tHe TeRfS” messages, I’m happy to lay these ta-ta’s down for the good of my community and hopefully shift how fucking ridiculous the discourse has gotten.

Let’s get back to how you don’t know anything, ya big dummy.

The world treats sex and gender like some innate facet of your corporeal form. Fixed, eternal, immutable and binary. For as long as there have been people, that is to say the last 2-300,000 years, there’s been puberty. However, it’s only in the last 50 of those years that medical science has come to understand hormones, let alone 100+ years since their existence was even discovered in 1902.

So, we still carry the cultural and generational weight of our lack of understanding.

It isn’t your fault you don’t know about this stuff, but the fact that you might be tall and muscular with a hard jawline, or that your hips are matronly wide, the lines of your face gently curved is not an expression of your X or Y chromosomes. All this bullshit about chromosomes? You realise the coding for those characteristics do not live in that part of your genome, right?

Let me be clear… What we understand as LOOKING like a man/woman, all the secondary sex characteristics, exist in EVERYONE in potentia. Every person can be “masculinised” or “feminised” through changes in their blood chemistry.

Assuming you arn’t walking around with your genitals out, how you are precieved as a man/woman is a product of your hormonal balance influencing the expression of certain genes and the selective pressures that are put upon you. The development of facial hair, the deepening of the voice and enlargement of the larynx, increased muscle mass and upper body strength, increased stature and heavier bone structure in the skull? All hormonal! Breast development, the widening of hips, the increased body fat composition, the increased elasticity in ligaments? Your hormones, not some astrology-of-XY-chromanones, define if you LOOK like a “man” or a “woman”.

Long before I feminised my body with HRT I masculinised it with exercise.

Christ, I wish I hadn’t. After puberty I was a narrow shouldered, pigeon-chested, noodle-armed weakling. The body I had in my 20’s (reminder: this was post “male-puberty”) would’ve been far easier to transition than the one I spent my 30’s turning into a brick-shithouse. I became gym obsessed. My testosterone levels went up, accelerating the gains. My chest and shoulders expanded, my neck thickened, I became broader, wider, bigger.

Don’t worry, this isn’t the “photo of my tits” I promised, that comes later.
(But also check out the tits on that twink!)

I attempted to affirm my gender. Shame it wasn’t the gender I wanted.

Much like how IVF is not some horror concoction of babies through alchemy, but a controlled nudge to achieve a well-studied and highly understood outcomes, HRT is the use of medical intervention to nudge the existing balance.

This thing that trans folks do is not some Frankenstein process.

It’s time we moved past our childish nativity that there’s a singular inherent quality of “man” or “woman” coded into our bodies. It’s an archaic fantasy born out of scientific ignorance on par with the belief that storks deliver babies. Beyond any arguments about which genitals you have, you are coded to visibly be both “man” and “woman” and this is expressed by a chemical balance that can be measurably altered by things as commonplace diet and exercise (albeit in very minor ways).

Gender isn’t as immutable as you think, and I’ll demonstrate by showing you my tits.

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If you’ve read this far you don’t get to hide behind the gossamer thin veil of “I never wanted to see this!”. You think the shirtless photo of me as a man was just a casual addition? No, honey I’m weeding out the ones who genuinely didn’t want to see this to leave only the respectfully curious and the gawkers.

You could have deleted the email at ANY time. You wanted to see this.

12 months, 22 months and 45 months (Just shy of 4 years HRT)

I told you I’d deliver. When have I ever let you down?

One of the most hilarious things about my transition is that everyone assumes I’ve had a boob job. I promise you, “the girls” are 100% hormonal. “But h-h-how? How could you have a pair of yams THIS nice?!?” I hear you think.

It’s because “Trans Puberty” is superior to “Natural Puberty”.

My transition doctor held firm, refused to give into my insistence to ramp up my estrogen, refused to proscribe additional progesterone until the time was right. Jesus-titty-fucking-Christ I’m glad he ignored my bullshit. I got these magnificent tits through his judicious hormone rationing over four years. My “Trans Puberty” (the second puberty in my life) didn’t hit me like a truck. It didn’t run unchecked and unregulated like a “Natural Puberty” can so easily do. Yes, there are other factors at play here like genetics, but I’d the benefit of a slow, considered and deliberate process.

Resoundingly every cisgendered woman who encounters this rack up close ends up explaining how goddamn difficult “natural puberty” is. Yes, it’s more than just breast development but it is one of the things that I share with cisgendered women, so it comes up a lot. So many stories of literal children getting hit by “the puberty bus” and having fully developed secondary sexual characteristics at the age of 14. One told me that they went from nothing to double-D’s in the space of 12 months. A year later? F-Cups. Those who know, absolutely KNOW how much that can fucking ruin your body, not just with debilitating pain but in your ligaments, in your very bones, damage that you carry for life.

So, here I am, told again and again by ciswomen that they’re jealous of this trans body.

I’ve lost count of how many cis women telling how they were reassured that “it’s okay if you don’t like your boobs, most women don’t like theirs.” Yeah, it’s cause y’all could have done with a low dose of puberty blockers to slow the process down. There’s no longer a biological imperative to sexually mature a body so young. We don’t live in gaddamn caves with staggaring infant mortality rates! Our biological evolution hasn’t caught up with our social one. There simply isn’t the need for getting your period as early as 8? Isn’t the need for getting erections and full sexual function (and desire) as early as 9?

“Natural Puberty” is a fucking nightmare from the stone ages.

There is however one horror element that’s a feature of the modern world.

ALL children undergoing puberty experience it at a time in their lives when they have the least agency and the least lived experience to cope. Worse still, we live in a society that’s all too willing to throw their developing bodies to the “sexualising industrial complex” under the cover of “oh it’s natural and normal”.

I started my second puberty at the age of 40 and you’ve seen some of the results. Before anyone starts trying to undermine the work of my doctor, no I was not dosed up with levels of hormones intended for dairy cows. Transition drugs are just off-label uses of existing medications. I take the same estrogen that menopausal women are prescribed, the same anti-androgen that’s used for hair-loss or poly-cystic ovaries. You, cisgendered, middle-aged woman sitting there, may be taking the exact same drugs in the exact same doses as I am. This glorious rack is proof that you CAN have a puberty later in life and it be FINE. This body demonstrates that NOT having a puberty is reversible.

As much as people will clamour about surmountable issues like bone density and fertility, I think all children, trans or otherwise should have their puberty delayed. Held back until a point where they have the emotional maturity to cope with it and the agency to ensure the development of their sex characteristics is not exploited. I think all children should put off or slow down their puberty so they’re not held hostage by the whims of their body chemistry.

To co-opt the language of those who’d police our bodies under the guise of “father knows best”, I tend to agree… We should “let kids be kids”.

–S