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Hanne Blank Boyd's avatar

I will truly never understand why people believe that utterly uncontrolled endogenous hormones are uniformly great and just fine and never, ever, medically problematic but controlled exogenous ones are automatically horrible and dangerous. I spent 2 very long pre-surgery years dealing with exceptionally horrific, medically dangerous abnormal uterine bleeding caused by endogenous hormones... that could only be slowed (and never actually stopped) via sky-high doses of exogenous ones. The exogenous hormones literally kept me from bleeding so heavily I required transfusion, though, which meant I could lead a relatively normal life until my doctors finally authorized hysterectomy. Access to exogenous hormone management (including blockers) is vitally important medicine for human people. They have many, many uses for people trans and cis and intersex and as a bonus they can also help grow some lovely breasts.

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Seán Dowling's avatar

oh honey that sounds like a nightmare! more and more i hear peoples stories and i feel blessed to have had things so easy. Thank you for this. Clearly I'm a fan of vulnerability, and i am grateful for you sharing this with me. x

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Hanne Blank Boyd's avatar

I tell this story to people with some frequency because of the widespread and totally incorrect beliefs that a) “natural” hormones are somehow harmless while “synthetic” or “added” hormones are harmful and b) that the only people who use the evil hormones are trans people and menopausal women and neither of them should because see above about harmful/evil/wrongity-wrong-wrong-wrong. I may be cis but I’m not stupid and it pains me to see so many cis people being stupid about something that is, in the end, on the WHO Model List of Essential Medicines for a raft of absolutely bulletproof good reasons.

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Ezra's avatar

Puberty blockers are already used for cis children who get early onset puberty when they're like 6-8 years old and it's completely safe. It's only when it's a trans kid or a kid who's over the age of 10 that people start freaking out and acting like you're ruining the kid's life by robbing them of - looks at notes - ... The traumatic experience of being sexualized as a child...

P.s. fantastic tits, great work 🫡

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Seán Dowling's avatar

And not to tar everyone with the pedo-brush... but like... If you think that a minor should have the body of an adult, then there is some messed up stuff in your heart. makes my goddamn skin crawl to think about it.

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Seán Dowling's avatar

Thank you honey. xxx

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michie eli's avatar

Thank you for sharing this 💙 not only are your tits exquisite, but as someone who has contemplated starting T for *years* but still worries about what a second puberty would actually feel like... this helps ease my mind quite a bit actually, even though it's HRT in the other direction. But also, seriously, respectfully... beautiful boobies

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Seán Dowling's avatar

Thank you honey... it never occurred to me that I'd be getting compliments from posting this yet here we are.... but more importantly, if you are thinking about T... you know you can start and stop it right? Like i know quite a few people who started and then decided that they weren't enjoying the experience and it wasn't like the took the first shot and BAM "John Cena"... like... There is a window where you can back out.

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michie eli's avatar

I get that, it's because of worries about my mental health/stability going through puberty again, not worrying I'll get too hot too fast, hehe. Well, that and like a million other super personal-to-me gender things I'm still mentally unfucking for myself. 🙂

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Frankie's avatar

I'm 67 and went through the same bulking up phase as well. Now after almost 3 years of hrt, I, too, have a great rack. Along with a phatt ass and thicc thighs. I got so much more from my second puberty than I did from my first. I'm happy to see you living a better life.

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Seán Dowling's avatar

I'm so happy for you too honey! isn't just... magnificent!!! xxx

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Bríanne's avatar

I recently turned 40 and waiting on endo office to call for appointment. #goals.

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Seán Dowling's avatar

Honey, I have everything crossed for you! I'm so fucking proud of you. x

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Kyle Lee's avatar

Great read and nice tits 👍

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Seán Dowling's avatar

i'm thinking i should put this on my grave stone

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June's avatar

I don’t wanna be intrusive but you mentioned how your doctor resisted your asks for increased dosage, and having just now entered month 2 of hrt and being chronically addicted to my data analytics major would you mind sharing what dosages you were on? Otherwise great read, I hadn’t given much thought of how much nonsense goes on in a cis puberty and this put it pretty well.

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Seán Dowling's avatar

No intrusion at all honey. So obviously the caveat is that this is just my experience and it is also coloured by the advice (and experience) of my doctors. I started on 2mg estradiol valerate and 100mg spiro. You’ve seen the photos so you know the timing and stages… the associated change in dosages was…. After the first 4-6 months I went to 4mg E… one in morning and one midday. Was at that for a while. Went up to 6mg around the 18 month mark (4mg morning 2mg day). At the three year mark I went up to 8mg (even split). Three and a half years added progesterone (100mg daily) in a two weeks on two weeks off rotation. That was like…. Two three months ago? I’ll be four years on HRT in June. All of this has been oral tablets. Never had patches, injections, gels or implants.

Hope it all helps. But please be patient with your body. I promise you that a slow process is better. I know that you want to just step into the machine that will magically transform you (god I want it so bad) but sadly this is how it is. Be kind to yourself honey and message me directly if you need. X

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Antoinette Accampo's avatar

Looking good. I wish my story was similar but after nearly 30 months on HRT I look more like you did at 12 months. It just doesn't work the same for all of us unfortunately.

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Seán Dowling's avatar

Oh honey, yes I am blessed, but slow and steady is where you need to be. I have no doubt you look magnificent regardless. X

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Rick's avatar

💙 I knew I couldn’t respond when I first saw this post Seán… and truthfully I didn’t *need* to see your breasts to be a fan of your writing !

This was a well thought out and written post including a couple angles I hadn’t recognized before 😉 your Doctor sounds wonderfully supportive… writings like this are ones I totally absorb… thank you Seán 🫂🌈

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Margie-Len Fancypants's avatar

Seán, thank you for sharing your magnificent jubs. I'm just past two years HRT (having started aged 52), and my body is finally truly becoming the shape it was meant to be. I think my ideal breast size is about the size you have reached, and it's wonderful seeing your two-year pictures pretty much matching mine now.

I have invented, and am using, a hormone protocol which emulates cis female *cycles,* and I think it really pays off. It's wonderful that informed consent care gives us the freedom to experiment and explore!

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Ed Luwish's avatar

I have to agree. You have lovely breasts. That’s my last word on the subject.

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Jennifer Collier's avatar

Kinda jelly of your tits, not gonna lie. After 6 years of HRT and still being an A cup, I went the store bought route. I'm very happy with them.

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Megan (she /her)'s avatar

Yes

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Hannah's avatar

Congrats on the nice rack, haha ☺️ I'm still waiting for mine to get a bit bigger after 4 years. But at least around an A cup now...

This was a great article and while I already was a strong proponent of puberty blockers for trans kids I had never seen it the way that puberty might be something that should be managed for anyone. Definitely food for thought - never looked at it from the perspective of a naturalistic fallacy.

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Brenden O'Donnell's avatar

This is so good. Thank you for sharing…so…openly!!!

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